Tuesday, February 26, 2013

# Eleven

The 11th chemotherapy infusion has come and gone.  I can't believe it but I welcome it.  This past year has come and gone so fast, but yet has been the slowest and most miserable year to date.  Crazy!  I cannot believe that I only have ONE MORE left.  It makes me so happy!!!!  But so emotional, thinking about how long this journey has been for me and my family.  As I was sitting ready for the hook up I felt so thankful and appreciative to friends, family and caregivers that truly have made this whole experience livable.  I really am going to especially miss my Chemo Nurses.  They are angels who feel like family!  
The infusion went well...I slept like a rock and upon waking I forgot where I was....multiple times.  The nausea and "calm yourself...we are only giving you poison" drugs have really made me feel intoxicated.   Jeff was afraid I would  fall on the way out to the car...it was that good.  
We came home a few minutes before the children arrived home from school and enjoyed their company (debatable) and then my angel Aunt and Uncle who live in town brought me my very favorite meal!
 Chicken Pot Pie. 
 It was delish and we love and appreciate ALL that they have done to support and love us. 
 We Love Them and are so lucky that they live close.


The rest of the evening I spent gorked on the couch with no recollection of anything that transpired.  I just remembered when the house became quiet.  (Not a bad way to spend the evening if I do say so myself.) :)
And here is to the rest of the week.  My mom is coming this afternoon and in the time being, I am catching up on laundry and ironing.  So. Much. Fun.  

The highlight of our weekend was creating this masterpiece Sunday afternoon.  There may or may not have been (but probably was) mutiny on-board during the creation....but we made it through.  Walker did a great job putting it all together.  However there may be a few parts where you might think that it is an old Japanese Film where the words don't line up with the sound from the mouths.   It is a treasure!   

video

Love to you All!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

The saddest thing I ever did see...



The saddest thing I ever did see

Was a woodpecker peckin' at a plastic tree. 

He looks at me, and "Friend", says he, 

"Things ain't as sweet as they used to be!"

-Shel Silverstein




Notice how healthy this plastic tree looks.


I have taken a lot of flack after killing my third bonsai tree.  I guess I just have not been able to give them the care they need.  My kids have teased me.  My daughter made me a bet that it would die and she won.  The kids love to remind me of how many I have killed,  but he final insult came this past week when JaNae gave me a plastic tree for my office.  I have sunk to a new low... and plastic does not provide the feng shui and zen that a real tree can provide.  Maybe once all of this cancer stuff is behind us I'll try again, but for now my office contains a dead bonsai... and a plastic one. 
Hope you are all well and happy.


This one... not so healthy...
-Jeff



Sunday, February 17, 2013

Curious to know a favorite chant I learned from my Mother that I share with my children when they are whining and inflicting me with their lack of pain tolerance?  

"Oh my Finger, Oh my Thumb, Oh my Belly, Oh my Bum."

Well, what goes around comes around...and I can honestly say with my lack of pain tolerance and empathy that my whole body aches.  Even though I felt relatively well after my infusion, the last few days, I have been a miserable mess.  My 36 year old body has jumped into a 90 year old's.  I think it is all due to that stupid white blood cell stimulator, Neulasta!   I have had a hard time sleeping at night and resting during the day.  My brain won't shut off.  I have hot flashes like they are going out of style. In addition to my body aches..my head and jaw aches and my mouth is sore.  Not to mention my pitiful bowels. 
 (Tired of my belly aching yet?)
It is crazy what all of these cancer fighting drugs are doing to this body.  I have been emotional thinking that I have to endure this 2 more times....and then get emotional that I am this far...and thankful that I only have another month to feel like garbage.  

(Stepping down from my Negative Nancy Soap Box)  

I can't believe that Valentines has come and gone.  I did not take a single picture, which makes me sad!  The children enjoyed their day at school and ate their weight in chocolate. (And so did I...Carmel and Chocolate really cover up the Oxalyplatin taste in my mouth!)
This week, my parents came for my infusion and then my dad left my mom here for the week!    We thoroughly enjoyed each others company.  We did a little shopping..(I love you Tai Pan and Dillards shoe department. ) And some fun projects for Christmas of 2013.  I treasure the time that we have been able to spend together.  I feel so close to her and I am truly blessed to have her as my Mother!  When my Dad came back to pick her up, he and Jeff got their gun fixes spending 3/4 of their day browsing gun stores and shows.  I am happy that they have so much in common.  Luckily they just looked and did not purchase....I spent a wad on some new shoes. (I won't mention how many new pairs are now adorning my closet.)

We were also spoiled once again by our ward with yummy meals and we had 2 Young Men bring me the Sacrament this afternoon, as I stayed home from church.   Once again, we feel so blessed with the support that surrounds us!  We have amazing friends! Today we have just relaxed and enjoyed being together.  It will be fun to have the kids home from school tomorrow as we observe President's Day! 

  And for your viewing pleasure......
Favorite Inappropriate Quotes of the Week, courtesy of my darlings.

Mom, no offense, but you look like crap!
---Walker

Mom, I love you even though you have Cancer.
---Wes

Dad!  I think I am having a Hot Flash!  (As he threw his hoodie across the room!)
---Wes

Primary Chorister..."Tell me something that you feel blessed to hear?"
"Farts...I like the sound of farts, but not the smell of them"
---Wyatt
(We need to work on some decorum!)

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

10th dose of Chemo

JaNae had her 10th treatment yesterday.  She came home from the cancer center feeling quite drugged up and sleepy.  She slept pretty well last night which was a change because she has been really having a hard time staying asleep.  Personally, I think it's the steroids causing her to have long nights...  JaNae has never had a hard time sleeping before this.  In fact, she has fallen asleep in movies at the theater before and usually falls asleep whenever we watch a video.  For the past few weeks however, she wakes up around 2am and reads a book or stalks facebook/blogs until about 4am.  Then she is groggy all day. Don't worry, I'm keeping an eye on her.  

She is doing well over all.  Her white blood cell count is still quite low.  When she goes in tomorrow to get her pump disconnected, she is going to get an injection of Neulasta which is a long acting granulocyte stimulating factor to increase her white blood cell count so her immune system can work properly.  I have heard that this injection costs several thousand dollars for one injection.  They told us the main side effect is bone pain because it works in the bone marrow.  Hopefully it's not too bad. 

Today, has been an anomaly, she has not felt terribly ill.  She has been up and actually went shopping which she has never done the day after chemo... it makes me wonder if she actually got the chemo.  We are not complaining about the way she feels, in fact we are really hoping she feels this well tomorrow and the rest of the week.  It's just so strange how unpredictable things are.  In fact tonight I think I feel more tired than she does... I think I'll go to bed. 
-Jeff



I could not resist this picture...